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I Fail
Words and Music by John Allee

Good days
I've got my good days
I've got my good days
But this ain't one of 'em

Don't take this personally
But I hate it when you say to me
That I'm like you
I don't agree
You don't play fair
But you do play games
I don't want to know their names

You think you're so immune
You sleep at night beneath the moon
Untethered to that big balloon
While I get drawn in like the tide
And drained until you're satisfied

And all in all and through and through
I always end up right back with you
Whenever I try for something new I fail
'Cause you have handed me the rope
With which to hang my guilty hope
Whenever I push the envelope I fail

I'm just a cipher here
I fade away I disappear
Like wedding bells and Christmas cheer
Well maybe I have lost my touch
But I never thought I'd lose so much

And all and all and through and through
I always end up right back with you
Whenever I try for something new I fail
You pin me down
I beg for more
You leave me bleeding on the floor
No matter how I prepare before I fail

I keep
Saying that I'll change somehow
Oh, and I keep
Your picture in my wallet still
I keep
Banging into things
Bracing for a fall
Running out of luck
Running into walls

Screw you, your alibis, your therapist,
Your deep set eyes
For letting me believe your lies
I want to move
I want to fight
I'll see you here tomorrow night

And all in all and through and through
I always end up right back with you
Whenever I try for something new I fail
'Cause every gamble
Every spin
Is heads I lose and tails you win
Consider it my greatest sin
I fail